The pressure has reached a critical threshold. One day, I locked myself in a hotel room in Lesotho to pray. I was determined not to let God go without him giving me a clear word from him.

With boldness, I placed my feelings before God and explained to him how tired and sick I was of tension, forced to evangelize, but restrained by men. Was all this his will for me, this constant impulse to lead campaigns? Other workers did not seem to believe that mass evangelism could be the right way to go.

That day, God clarified things for me. He also answered me directly that I had spoken to him. He said to me : "If you give up the vision I gave you, I should call on another man who will accept and do what I want."

I immediately repented of my hesitations. I made my decision once and for all. God began to show favor and give me encouragement.

Since that day, I have never looked back. I learned how to treat critics and their critics by letting God himself take my defense. May they see the direction of the Lord by the fruits that it bears, I decided. I focused on what he expected of me and the ministry and the results grew, step by step, dimension by size, sometimes even dramatically.

Jeremy Sourdril